#BN2024Epilogues: 2024 Was a Year of Dreams, Disappointments & Discovery for Oluwadamilola Fisayo

Que Sera Sera is leaving issues to chance. I stamp it’s a comforting thought for some, but I’ve simply about realise that leaving issues to chance isn’t for me which is why I had a solid idea for 2024.

The contemporary year began, as most years attain, with high hopes and careful planning. At 23, I felt geared as much as navigate my year with map and precision. I had one principal goal that stood gargantuan above the relaxation. One dream so mountainous that the entire lot else I deliberate revolved around it. If that dream came to pass, the relaxation would fall seamlessly into spot. At the least, that’s what I believed. 

I keep in mind sitting with my mum on the third of January, sharing my plans for the year. She listened, then requested, “Is that every one?” That query stayed with me throughout, even supposing I brushed it off on the time.

For 9 months, I lived within the shadow of that singular goal. I was so convinced it would happen that I let it dictate my existence. Every time I believed I was end, it slipped additional away. And in waiting for that dream to materialise, I forgot to live. I stalled projects cherish filming my first documentary, one thing I had been alive to about since graduating from film college with a screenwriting certificate. Nonetheless I advised myself, “What’s the point in starting if I’ll occupy to raze when the dream comes correct?”

What I failed to see used to be that existence doesn’t raze for us. While I waited, alternatives to draw, develop, and thrive passed me by. I advised myself I was being strategic, but when truth be told, I was keeping myself help.

There had been prolonged nights of aloof reflection, customarily tinged with self-pity. I spoke to God as soon as in a while, but I complained better than I prayed. Complaints occupy a manner of blinding us to what’s upright in our lives, and I was fixated on what wasn’t working. Gratitude slipped thru my fingers.

When I stopped and counted my blessings, I realised upright how worthy 2024 has given me. This year wasn’t all disappointment despite the entire lot. I varied my work for the duration of varied industries and earned better than I had sooner than. I graduated from film college, a feat that boosted my confidence and enriched my artistic skillset.

My mom, who had faced health challenges in outdated years, notorious a landmark age which is truthfully a living proof of grace and resilience.

I skilled aloof victories, moments as soon as I made an affect despite my self-doubt. The supportive folk in my existence stood by me, serving to me navigate the challenges that existence threw my manner. Above all, I cherish the easy present of quiet being in a location to smile. It’s a fetch.

Many issues seem silly now as I wager however the principal 9 months had been stuffed with so worthy hope and so many lessons. I’ve simply about realise that there’s entirely so worthy you’ll want to sustain an eye on within the pursuit of a dream. Within the tip, shedding yourself within the plot isn’t value it. Every so ceaselessly the scamper isn’t what you anticipated, nonetheless it’s constantly what you wish. It wasn’t a excellent year nonetheless it used to be mine; messy and rich with boost.

As I step into 2025, I lift this question with me: What in case your dream isn’t upright about reaching a destination, but about discovering who you change into along the vogue?